But in ICU to CCU, it is mostly not a good news.
I don't know how others will digest it but I see it as both good and not so good news.
Good news is my mom don't have to go through any surgery for now as she is not suitable to go through it.
On the other hand, she is too weak to even recover. Her whole body is full of unwanted fluid. Her kidney have failed. She is on dialysis for now till the doctor update us that she can be off that 'blood cleansing' machine. Till then, it'll still be there.
One of her most important organ is failing....the HEART......that department is now failing. It can stop at any given time. Her lungs too.
Everytime i look at her, my heart experienced mixed feelings. On one hand i'm grateful that I'm able to see my mom till now. On the other hand knowing that her days are numbered.
Her breathing is no difference than a fish without water.
Each breath she took gives her pain but there's nothing we can do to help her. Else than pain reliever.
Nevertheless, I believe in miracles. We are just mere planner on earth but Allah owns it and a decision maker. If that's what my mom have to go through, I'll try as much to help her ease it away by being with her as much as I can.
If departing is the best for her and lifted up her pain, so be it. I'll send her away with a smile in my heart although I'll be crying cos I'm a mere human filled with emotions. I'll be sad but won't hover on it. I'm sure she'll be at a better place.
Allah knows best. May the best path is bestowed upon my mom's path.
Dear Wonderful Reader,
Please help to make dua/prayer for my mom. Every single dua/prayer by each and everyone of you is much appreciated by me.
Thank you so much in advance.