I do understand that is just how Allah wants it to be. Allah is talking to me all the time along the journey of my life without me realising it.
Subhanallah I was a very bad tempered person back then. Allah make me go through obstacles that make me what I am today.
Everything is meant to be the way Allah wants it for me.
Thank you Allah for everything. I didn't get what I wanted but I sure do get what I truely needed.